{"id":93,"date":"2007-06-19T10:29:00","date_gmt":"2007-06-19T18:29:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.jimfreedom.com\/blog\/?p=93"},"modified":"2012-02-18T18:05:38","modified_gmt":"2012-02-19T02:05:38","slug":"impending-doom","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/www.jimfreedom.com\/blog\/2007\/06\/19\/impending-doom\/","title":{"rendered":"Impending Doom"},"content":{"rendered":"
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I wonder if people who are about to die have some sense of impending doom, some \u2018knowingness\u2019 that they are about to die.\u00a0 Just before my father died of a massive heart attack he called my mother, whom he had not talked to in almost twenty years, to wish her a happy birthday, which was the next day.\u00a0 Within an hour of that phone call my father was dead.\u00a0 He also called both of my sisters but failed to call either myself or my brother.\u00a0 <\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

But I still wonder, did he somehow \u2018know\u2019 or sense that he was going to die.\u00a0 He had had some tests done on his heart only the week before and was to get back the result the following Monday.\u00a0 <\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

I wonder this because today I am feeling that feeling of impending doom.\u00a0 I feel I am going to die or something like that.\u00a0 No, I would have to say that I really feel I am going to die.\u00a0 Now, I have had this feeling many times before and, of course, I did not die.\u00a0 But this time seems to feel different; I do not feel any resistance to the idea of my immediate demise.\u00a0 In the past there was some resistance to the thought of my immediate death, but today I actually feel that I would welcome it.<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

Maybe this is because I am depressed, which I could make an argument for, or maybe it is because\u00a0 I am more \u2018mature\u2019 than I was before and recognize this \u2018sense\u2019 as only a thought. \u00a0Yea, maybe I am just experiencing some depression.\u00a0 I feel \u2018trapped\u2019, which, of course, is only a product of my ways of thinking, but I still feel that way.\u00a0 I am trapped in a sense of I do not know what I want, or if I know what I want I only want it bad enough for a short time to do something about it.\u00a0 My deeper desires I don\u2019t know how to satisfy or if I have an idea on how to do that I don\u2019t have the stamina or drive to actually work on the \u2018how to\u2019 part of it.\u00a0 Silly me\u2026<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

So I am probably depressed and would welcome a quick and painful death.\u00a0 Opps, did I say \u2018painful\u2019 death?\u00a0 I did\u2026maybe because I like drama.<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

I have found that there is some truth in this \u201cThe Secret\u201d stuff that says we manifest what we focus our minds on.\u00a0 Could I be manifesting my impending doom just by thinking about it?\u00a0 I don\u2019t know, but because I am a scientist of the spirit, I am writing this down just in case something happens to me today and then you will know that people do \u2018sense\u2019 their impending doom.\u00a0 <\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

And if I am wrong, I will see you tomorrow\u2026and part of me is kind of hoping that I am wrong so I guess I really do not want die that much after all.<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

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