Dead, gone and forgotten.\u00a0 My “self” is dead. I no longer have to defend it. I no longer have to worry if it is going to heaven or hell or what karma or sin it has or if it will reincarnate into a bat.\u00a0 It is dead; I killed it.<\/p>\n
Boy, what a difference a dead self makes.\u00a0 Of course, it does not mean that there is not worry for this piece of carcass known as Jim, but the carcass is just a tool, a vehicle, a toy to be played with until it is worn out then thrown away.\u00a0 “I” do not have to worry about it anymore because “I” am dead.
\nYou might ask, “How did you kill yourself if you are still here?\u201d\u00a0 Well, \u201cI\u201d am not here, the body is.\u00a0 \u201cI\u201d am dead.\u00a0 At least the part of Jim that thinks of himself as a body or a separate being with beginning and end.<\/p>\n
I killed myself by looking for the self.\u00a0 Eventually I saw that the self is just a thought, an electro-magnetic impulse traveling around the brain\/body mechanism.\u00a0 When I fully let go of focusing on anything, particularly the sensations in the body\/brain, then the instrument relaxed, let go and stop creating any more impulses, including the impulse known as \u2018self\u2019.<\/p>\n
Of course, acknowledging that this happened was another impulse which brought back the original impulse of self.\u00a0 HOWEVER, the power of the idea or thought known as “self”\u00a0is broken and has diminished ever since.<\/p>\n
It is wonderful being free from the grip my \u2018self\u2019 had on me.\u00a0 No longer is there worry about \u2018my\u2019 career.\u00a0 Karma and sin have no meaning.\u00a0 Since \u201cI\u201d am no longer important then \u2018my\u2019 world is no longer important.\u00a0 Hell, I can now see that nothing in the manifested universe is important so why worry about anything.\u00a0 It is all here just for the fun of it.\u00a0 All is meaningless (unless I want to play with meaning and create meaning for it).\u00a0 All is vanity.<\/p>\n
Even writing this is vanity, but it is also a lot of fun.
\nNow I am free to enjoy and love ALL that life has to offer.
\nYet, habits are hard to die and the habit of thinking about my \u2018self\u2019 is strong.\u00a0 Sometimes there is forgetting that the self is not real and I go back to worrying about it. \u00a0Usually I wake back up by myself but sometimes it take a true friend, one who really cares about me, to stun me back awake by confronting my silly idea that I am real or important or that I matter or that anything I could ever do mattered or that anything anyone could do or has ever done could really matter.<\/p>\n
Sometimes a go a long time before I wake back up. \u00a0In those times, I wish I had more friends who really cared about me enough to jolt me back awake. \u00a0So I have dedicated my life (Oops, there I go again, like it is \u2018my\u2019 life in the first place, silly me) to waking up others so that they can wake me up when I fall asleep, AND, so they can fully enjoy and love ALL that life has to offer.<\/p>\n
Wait, OTHERS? \u00a0There I go again, thinking there are \u2018others\u2019 in the universe. \u00a0How can that be if \u201cI\u201d have no beginning or end, I am infinite and all-inclusive. \u00a0In infinity, there is no \u2018other\u2019 so there are no others. \u00a0Ah, then I am not waking up \u2018others\u2019 so they can fully enjoy and love ALL that life has to offer; I am waking the REST of me up to fully enjoy and love ALL that life has to offer.<\/p>\n
Phew, that was a lot of work. \u00a0Ah, but it is worth it. \u00a0What greater gift can I give to myself (and all there other \u2018selves\u2019 of me out there) that to wake up to enjoy this perfect world and universe?<\/p>\n
Does anybody want to join me?<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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