My Story

"Behold, the days come, saith the LORD, that I will make a new covenant with the house of Israel... But this shall be the covenant that I will make with the house of Israel; After those days, saith the LORD, I will put my law in their inward parts, and write it in their hearts; and will be their God, and they shall be my people. And they shall teach no more every man his neighbour, and every man his brother, saying, Know the LORD: for they shall all know me, from the least of them unto the greatest of them, saith the LORD: for I will forgive their iniquity, and I will remember their sin no more."

I really liked this quote. I particularly like the last line, "I will forgive their iniquity, and I will remember their sin no more." This reflected how I felt. I had forgiven myself (and everybody else) of my/their iniquities and I no longer remembered any sins. It is more accurate to say that I no longer believed in the concept of sin, at least that aspect of the concept of sin that implies that a sin is attached to my soul and if not resolved will take me to hell. Since my enlightenment had showed me that "I" or the self was unreal then my soul was unreal and "I" could not go to hell. The truth had set me free from the delusions of sin.

I am no longer interested in judging or rejecting anybody for their ways of thinking. I do want to point out where people are NOT thinking, where they are being just gullible and shallow believers and not questioning. I do not want to reject anybody for they are me. I do want to challenge and stimulate people to examine the choices they have made that may be unhealthy, unwise or that do not offer the highest quality life experience. If it comes across as judgement it is miss understood. The word judgement has a sense of rejection in it that is not implied. I look here for the ability to reach an intelligent conclusion based on the skill of discernment. I try to discern the difference between true and false teachings. I do unto others as I would want done unto me. Question me as I have questioned. Challenge me as challenge.

I am saddened when I see Christians being so false to themselves. I have rarely meet a Christian who had to courage to be honest with themselves, let alone the rest of the world. Even when shown the faithlessness of their doctrines they do not have the integrity to admit it. It is the dishonest and lack of integrity that leads to their faithlessness. It is the faithlessness of Christianity that hurts me the most. The Christians are not only faithless, they teach faithlessness.

I wanted to understand why Christianity was so faithless.

I like what I was reading in the gospels until I got the book of John. Then I started to see what I had seen many timers before, guru worship. The writer of this gospel was idealizing Jesus, putting him up on a pedestal and worshipping him like a graven idol. It was obvious that the writer had stored his treasures here on earth in the flesh of Jesus. He had not understood Jesus teachings. This delusion came out in his animosity toward those who opposed Jesus or questioned him.

When I got into the book of Acts I really started to see the corruption of that which would eventually be called Christianity. There was the immediate focus on organization, money and power, all aspect that corrupt.

It seemed that the farther I got away from the Synoptic Gospels (the first three gospels) the darker the Bible became. The Epistles of Paul really started to show how the Christians got corrupted. Until I finally got to Revelations and it utter corruption and delusions. Revelations was totally from the head and totally denied the foundations that Jesus had tried to establish. There was no reality only belief in the future.

The farther away one gets from the Synoptic Gospels the darker they get. I can see this when I go to a church or ask a Christian what books of the bible they are studying and they say the Epistles of Paul or Revelations. These people are the most faithless and fearful of them all.

I can see no value in the book of Revelations and the people who make that book valuable are very dark, very hateful and very fearful.

As I write this book I see that I am still coming to peace with certain thoughts and ideas. I have come to peace with using the language of being an evangelist for the Good News. I have also come to peace with seeing the faithless doctrine of the Christians.

There are many things that the Christians seem to have missed that Jesus offered. I recognize that what we have of Jesus' teachings is very vague and difficult to understand. But as Jesus said, nothing is hidden that is not later revealed. (Matthew 10:26) Now is the time for me to reveal that to the world. I am the one who has come to show that Jesus was not crazy, that it is possible to, "be Perfect, as the Father in Heaven is Perfect." (Matthew 5:48) I am here to show that it is possible to go to Heaven and still be here on earth.

I come to save the Christians from their faithless doctrines.

As I have been writing this book I realized that I am coming to peace with certain Christian ideas, concepts and language.

Religion is the blind leading the blind who have fallen into the pit of a dark and faithless doctrine, which keeps people from know the Eternal Goodness with is God.

Religion is just a social club used by the ruling elite to control the gullible masses. At best they are interested in relative goodness and mediocrity in their social interactions. They are more interested in find the esteem of people then of God. They are looking for approval from one another, the proverbial carrot on a stick.

In the social club called religion we gather to get our sense of goodness. We are seeking the esteem of people, not from God. Religion is all about getting approval from others. it is about being accepted. Honesty is not encouraged; in fact, it is discouraged.

They are the dead. As Jesus said, let the dead bury the dead.

Finding Christianity's Roots

When I started studying the Bible seriously in 1987 and on I started looking outside of Christian philosophy because I could see very clearly that the creators of Christianity had missed the point that Jesus was about. They did not have anywhere near the same level of clarity or faith that Jesus had. Therefore, their institution deceived itself the way the founders had deceived themselves. So I could not trust Christian literature to tell me anything about the origins of the Bible and how it was made up.

There are things written about the origins of the Bible, but the Christians are loathed to talk about it. I read about how various Popes had had things changed or modified in the scriptures to fit their political needs. I read that it was not about until three hundred years after Jesus died that the church deified him. At that time they wanted to put him up on a pedestal and make him an object of worship. To do this they had to sanitize his story to make him appear as something other than human. So they pulled out all the stories of his apostles who had questioned or challenged him.

I started to read about the origins of the Bible. I read about how the various Popes had things changed in the scriptures to fit their current political needs. The church wanted to hide things that were not consistent with the philosophy that they wanted to present. They wanted to keep people in the dark.

I could see that the clergy and Popes would do this to make their religion more marketable and special. If their guru was a special guru then they must be special people who are worthy of worship. This is all a product of people very narrow mindedness. God gave His only begotten son to us here on this planet of all the infinite planets in the universe so we are very special people. And God only gave his son to the people of Israel because they are God's chosen people. This was just an arrogant attitude of the Jewish people who thought of themselves as special. They could not see that this way of thinking is very unhealthy for themselves and for humanity.

That had to make the image of Jesus more sanitized, more pure then the truth would display. Jesus could not have normal human desires, wants and wishes. He could not lust. He could not appear normal in any way. If Jesus was normal then anybody could find what he was offering. If Jesus was normal then anybody could go directly to God as Jesus had done. If the people went directly to God then they would have no need for the church. How would the clergy make a living. Being a priest was easy work and very rewarding. People honored you and you could make a very good living. So having people believe that Jesus was normal and that what he offered was available to anyone was not something that was good for the business of religion. They HAD to change the image of who Jesus was.

I could see that all this theology was just a reflection of people's faithlessness, insecurity and ignorance. Theology is the study of the blind leading the blind.

Then I read about the Nag Hammadi library. This was a collection of early Christian writings that the church had order purged from canons and all copies destroyed. But instead of destroying them as the church had ordered some enterprising and God respecting monk had buried them in clay pots in the desert where they were found in 1947 or so. Of course, most of them had deteriorated considerable but some were readable.

And I could see why they wanted them destroyed, for they would blow a hole in the idea that Jesus was something more than normal in a physical way. The church wanted to hide the truth from future readers. All this happened in around the year 552 under to watchful eye of Pope Constantinople.

In the Nag Hammadi library Gospel of Phillip it is written that Phillip objected to Jesus kissing Mary, who was called Magdalene, on the mouth in public. Since I had been to primitive, closed cultures before where they frown or outlaw touching between the sexes I could see why the more conservative members of Jesus' troop would frown on these kinds of things. Any references to the possibility that Jesus was not a virgin, that he was not pure, would have to go. In the Gospel of Thomas there are many quotes of Jesus that did not make it into the other traditional gospels because they showed that Jesus was a true mystic. And because the church fathers were very chauvinistic they could not allow the Gospel of Mary Magdalene, which showed that she was probably Jesus' best student, continue to be in the canons. And I could see why the church would call them heresy.

Corruption of the church had started even before Jesus' death with the jockeying of the apostles for positions of power and authority (Matthew 20:23). Power is what position and authority are about. Power is what organizations are about. Power corrupts and has always corrupted. Even Jesus was corrupted by power and the corruption would continue to the present day.

 

Judging Jesus

Once I started to looking critically at Christianity then I had to look at Jesus critically. I started to listen with my heart at both his teachings and his example. There were some things about his teachings that just did not sit right with me. I recognized that Jesus never wrote so all that we have of his teachings are from others who obviously did not fully understand what Jesus was saying or understand what he was about. I say obviously because if the had understood Jesus completely they would have been Jesus' equal, but I have yet to hear of anyone say they were his equal.

I could only judge Jesus after I took him off his pedestal and looked at him as a human being who saw something and had the courage to talk about it. I had opened my eyes to who he was beyond mythology.

I now recognize that Jesus had to be what he was. He was perfect as we all are. We can not be anything more than we are. Jesus was perfect for his time, for his culture and for the opportunities that existed then. He is still a good example of what we can all be. BUT, he is not the BEST example of what we can all be. The ideal that he was is good, but I can do better, I am better. In order to do better than Jesus I had to examine his example and see how I could improve upon it. I had to look at the image the Bible presents of him, the only image we have of him, and FEEL the truth or falseness of his way, his truth and his life. There is a reason why the Christians have ignored Jesus' way, his truth and his life. It is because Jesus was still too much in his head and not practical enough. He was practical in many of his teachings but he still offered many theoretical ideas.

Jesus was an immature mystic. He did not live long enough to fully examine his ways of thinking to see if they were consistent with his perceptions. Given time he could have done a lot better job, but he was not given time. The religious would not allow him to live that long.

So to go beyond Jesus I had to judge Jesus. Jesus was good. I want to do better.

One of Jesus' failure was that he used spiritual "tricks", magic tricks or so called miracle type things to impress the easily impressible or gullible people. These immature people later because some of his followers who would never figure out what he was talking about because they would always be looking to the physical world for signs that the Kingdom of Heaven was coming. They could not understand that Jesus' Kingdom was within them.

Because Jesus drew around his these immature people none of them ever found what he offered, the Kingdom of Heaven or the Kingdom of God. Not one of them ever talked about that kingdom as a personal experience, the way Jesus did. Not one of them ever became one with God the way Jesus did. Not one ever even realized that they could be an equal to Jesus, let alone ever experience that. (At least according to those who wrote in what is now known as the Bible.)

Of course, the faithless will say that no one can become an equal to Jesus. Those who would say this do not know Jesus. As Jesus said, if you have faith as a grain of mustard seed...then nothing will be impossible to you. The faithless will think it is impossible.

So Jesus made an error in doing those tricks and trying to impress shallow people with physically changing the world. He did not emphasize instead the changing of themselves and their attitudes.

Another bad example that Jesus used was his parable of the man who found a buried treasure in a field (Mat 13:44). The man covers the treasure back up and goes out and sells all he has to buy the field. If you take this parable as a principle you realize that it goes against the Golden Rule of do unto others as you would have them do unto you. would you want somebody who finds a treasure on your property to hide it from you and then buy that field for their own benefit. No. You would want them to tell you about that treasure and then you would share with them the treasure. They are being deceiving by not telling you the true value of the field.

When Jesus willingly went to Jerusalem knowing that he would be killed by the hard hearted religious people, he was not demonstrating self love. You can not love another if you can not even love yourself and this is where Jesus demonstrated he really did not understand his own pronouncement in the Great Commandment, which says

Jesus said unto him, "Thou shalt love the Lord thy God with all thy heart, and with all thy soul, and with all thy mind. This is the first and great commandment. And the second is like unto it, Thou shalt love thy neighbour as thyself. On these two commandments hang all the law and the prophets." (Mat 22:37)

A little logic will show you that if you can not at least love yourself then how can you possible love your neighbor? And if you can not even love your neighbor then how could you love God who created both you and your neighbor? So we must start in the center with loving ourselves first before we should try to love our neighbor or God.

Hence, most of Jesus' disciples ended up getting themselves killed as a way of demonstrating love.

Of course, people will say that Jesus and his disciples gave their lives for others in their willingness to speak their truth despite the hatred and threats of violence from the religious people around them. I recognize the value of their love for others, but their example is not a healthy one for those others to follow. We do not want to push people to a place where they feel a need to get violent. If we truly love them we do not want to simulate their hatred that much for the pain that they feel first is the pain of their hatred. Violence and murder are not the way. Pushing people to violence and murder is not the way.

Another of the objections I had with Jesus' teaching concerned food. He said, "not what goes into the mouth defiles a man, but what comes out of the mouth, this defiles a man." (Matthew 15:11) Tell that to a drug addict or somebody who lives off of junk food. Since we experience life through our body and our bodies are made up of what we eat then the quality of our life experience is directly related to what we put in our mouths. AND, probably more importantly, what comes out of our mouth, words, does not hurt anyone. It is people's reactions to the words that cause them injury.

So Jesus was full of nonsense here. This only shows that Jesus was still pretty immature in his enlightenment and had not seen through this hogwash.

I am also not happy with his healing people. I can understand the desire to help others who as of yet do not know how to help themselves. I like the old adage, "Give them a fish and they eat for a day. Teach them to fish and they feast for a lifetime." If they are starving then they will be more willing to learn how to fish. But if they are too hungry then they can not even learn. Dilemma.

By healing people everybody admired Jesus but they did not get free from their fear of disease. Nor did they get free from the delusions that they could not do it themselves. They were still trapped in their diseases. Jesus did not indicate to the masses that they could also learn how to heal themselves as he healed them. And does this not discourage them by telling them that others can heal (or save) you but you can not do it for yourself.

Even today people think of Jesus' miracles as proof of his divinity. Since I have seen and experienced many 'miracles' myself I know that miracles are not that special. They do not show somebody's divinity only their knowledge. If you are divine you ARE the people and you want for them what you want for yourself. That is, you want them to be as free as you are so you show them how to be free.

Teaching is infinitely better than doing.

In John 15:13, Jesus said, "Greater love hath no man than this, that a man lay down his life for his friends." I would agree, but laying down your life for your friends does not mean dying for them. It means you dedicate your life to those you love. And if you are a Son of Man, or a Servant of Humanity, then you dedicate your life to the service of humanity. There is no greater love then this.

Jesus, in his immaturity, that that he needed to die for others, to give his life for others. The only thing this did was to show just how hard hearted the religious people where. For they had to kill him to shut him up. In this Jesus demonstrated the extreme self abusive behavior or how they had been conditioned to abuse themselves just stimulated by words.

I can feel the desire that Jesus had of wanting to do something dramatic just to get attention. He was willing to sacrifice himself just to get attention to what he wanted people to see. All this just to get people's attention off of themselves. When we are focused on ourselves we make ourselves miserable. When they see others who are suffering more than they are then they let go of that self absorption. By thinking of Jesus' suffering we recognize that our suffering is nothing compared to that. That lessens the tension ourselves and allows us more of an experience of heaven.

I can feel that pain of humanity in its self-absorption. I can feel the desire to distract them from that self-absorption.

I can also see that this is not a good example. Thankfully, I have matured beyond where Jesus went and will not go into this self abusive, self hating behavior. I am torn between the desire to sacrifice myself to get people's attention and the desire to demonstrate that love must start without ourselves (Self Love First).

This desire to get people's attention even by committing suicide is very old. Even the 911 terrorist did just that. It is the love of something greater that motivates them to suicide and even murder. But just as the 911 terrorists were not right in their suicide so was Jesus not right in this effort.

Sometimes you have to hit a jackass across the head with a two by four to get its attention, but suicide is not the way to do that. What type of event would get people's attention and sustain it? Here I think that Paul did a better job then Jesus. He created a movement that eventually became Christianity. Unfortunately, the foundation he established was not on the more solid rock of Jesus teachings but on his own weak teachings.

Jesus was a hypocrite. Hypocrisy is when you say do not do as I do, do as I say.

Jesus' way was not to believe in anything. Jesus believed nothing and obeyed no one. There is no place in the Bible where Jesus said that he believed in anything. So Jesus was not believer. His way was not to be a believer.

Therefore, when he encouraged others to believe in anything then he was being a hypocrite.

No wonder the Christians went so far astray. Today they preach that we should believe and obey which is directly opposite of Jesus' way, truth and life.

Jesus Abandoned God

When Jesus said, And about the ninth hour Jesus cried with a loud voice, "My God, my God, why hast thou forsaken me?" (Matthew 27:46) God did not forsake Jesus, Jesus forsake God when he turned his back on love. Jesus had deluded himself into believing that he had to commit suicide for the sake of others, but that was not love, it was ignorance. He was ignoring that true love starts with yourself. Love they neighbor AS THY SELF. Would you murder your neighbor out of love. NO. So why get yourself murdered out of love.

Jesus was not loving the conservative religious people who hated him so much that they wanted to kill him. Jesus was just tormenting them. There were not going to 'get it' in the short time that he gave them. It would take patience and persistence to wake up the conservative or fundamentalist religious person. It would take time. Love is measured not in power or passion but in time.

Jesus had abandon his love of those he challenged. He pushed them too far. So God/Love had not abandoned Jesus, Jesus had abandoned Love.

 

Power Corrupts

"An honest man can feel no pleasure in the exercise of power over his fellow citizens." -- Thomas Jefferson

I wanted to understand why power corrupted so I looked at it for some time. I saw that when you focus the suns energy through a magnifying glass onto your hand you will notice that the spot of focus gets hot. We have all probably seen this as kids when we burned our names into a piece of word or started a fire with some paper. This focusing of the light or energy from the sun is creating a lot of activity in the center spot. Eventually this will corrupt or destroy the material in the center spot. This focused energy is called power and that is how power corrupts.

Jesus had the power to make people feel good. He had a lot of power because he could impress so many people. People gave their power away to Jesus when they believed he could save them. And Jesus took this power when he lead them to believe that he could save them (John 3:17). He forgot that he could not save the world. He forgot that the world did not need saving. He forgot that the world was always in the good hands of God. His faith had been corrupted. As it has been said, "Power tends to corrupt, and absolute power corrupts absolutely," so Jesus was corrupted by the delusions of power and believed that he could save a world that was never in peril. Such faithlessness.

If Jesus had been more honest and faithful then he would have told the people that it was their faith that saved them. He did, of course, say that it was their faith that saved them (Luke 7:50), but he did not emphasize this enough. Instead, his apostles and disciples really push the lie that Jesus is the one that saves people, not their own faith or fearlessness.

So this is what corrupted the whole Christian church.

This does not mean that power is a bad thing, for nothing is bad in of itself. A laser beam is a very powerful thing and can be used to do many good things. But if that laser beam is pointed at the wrong place, say you eye, for too long then it can hurt your eyes.

 

"Ona'as Devarim"

There is an old Jewish law, , "Ona'as Devarim" (hurting others with words), that is considered a sin by the Jewish people. If your words hurt others then you are responsible. If your words hurt lots of people then this is a capital crime and you should be put to death. Today most people can see that stupidity of this belief, but in Jesus' time this was the law of the land. And Jesus violated that law, he sinned against his community and what they believed was against God. He therefore should have been put to death.

By today's standards and beliefs we can see that words do not hurt people, it is people's reactions to words that cause injury. Therefore, we do not punish people that much because of the reactions of people to words. But in Jesus' time he deserved to die and he knew it.

Faithless Followers

When reading about the apostles in the book of Acts I started to notice why the Christians got off the track.

Paul originally was one of the Pharisees that Jesus had so adamantly condemned. Jesus condemned the Pharisees hypocrisy for they traveled over land and sea to proselytize a people then they give them a hell worst than their own. The Pharisees neither entered the kingdom of heaven nor did they allow others to (Matthew 23:13-15).

Paul, who changed his name from Saul, openly admitted a desire to destroy the movement that Jesus started and return people back to the control of the religious hierarchy. Paul's philosophy slowly erodes the confidence of people in Jesus and his teachings.

It could be little things like saying that men who wear long hair are a disgrace, yet every picture you see today of Jesus he has long hair (I Corinthians 11:14). What does the subtly say to people, that Jesus was a disgrace? Tell me this does not erode the people's confidence in Jesus.

Paul's story, as I see it, was that he tried to destroy Jesus' movement by arresting and killing Jesus' followers at first. But when that did not work he got one day, on the road to Damascus, he got a brilliant idea. He would change his name from Saul to Paul and say he was a convert to the Christian way. Then he would call himself a leader, an Apostle of Jesus, and lead the people back to within control of the religious hierarchy and the paper gods of scripture. It did not have to be the current religious hierarchy, it could be a new hierarchy but one that could safely control the people. For if we the rulers do not rule the people then they will stumble. Jesus warned people about the wolf that will come in sheep clothing (Matthew 7:15).

It was Paul's faithlessness that motivated this effort. He could not see that stumbling is part of the process. He may have been motivated out of love for people but he was over protective. Just as some parents are over protective of their children. They want to help a child who is struggling with their homework so they do the homework for them. This does not help the child learn the subject. We need to struggle to be healthy. Just as a baby chick needs to struggle to get out of the egg. If you help it you hurt it.

I once when to a bible study in a church in Massachusetts. During the bible study I mentioned something that Jesus said and I can still see this woman who respond. She said, "That is ok for Jesus, he was God and we are not." The rest of the group agreed. Therefore, for them Jesus' example of what they could be had effectively been nullified. It seemed as if that was what Paul was all about, totally nullifying Jesus' example of what we can become.

This really bothered me. The Christians were not just doing the opposite of what Jesus taught but they were teaching that Jesus' way was nonsense. They were actually discouraging people from thinking liking Jesus, following his way, or finding what Jesus offered.

The whole deification of Jesus has nullified Jesus as an example of what we can be or find. I can see why the religious authorities would want that. Paul talks a lot about that. Paul warned people to avoid those who cause division (Romans 16:17). Yet, Jesus said the he came not to bring peace but division (Luke 12:51). Paul and the religious authorities would not want somebody challenging their authority. That is how they make a living, by keeping people powerless and in the dark.

Jesus' way was not to be a follower but one who found the guiding light within and followed that. All the apostles, disciples and other followers of Jesus are the ones that have missed that very important point. They are not going Jesus' way.

It is the followers faithlessness that bugs me the most. Not just their faithlessness but the fact that they teach faithlessness to others. The followers teach that they can not be like Jesus, but Jesus said that if you have faith as a grain of mustard seed...nothing will be impossible to you (Matthew 17:20). The Christians were always telling that what I wanted was impossible. I could only conclude that they were the faithless.

The Christian clergy and evangelists are all the blind leading the blind, for both have falling into a pit (Matthew 15:14).

Now, I can feel the passion that came alive when I read. I still have that passion. That passion comes from the hurt I feel when I see people lead astray and into the darkness. It is not the darkness that bothers me so much as the lies that bind or keep people in the darkness. The darkness is a rich place but the bondage there is a tragedy and I am highly motivated to confront that calamity.

I would suggest that anybody who really wants to develop their ability to discern that they look at the teachings of the followers of anybody and try to discern why they were still followers or seekers and not finders.

All this, and many other places, are why I feel the Christians have been so turned against Jesus, his way, his truth and his life.

For me Jesus' movement that he tried to start was a movement to empower the individual. Jesus wanted us to find the God within, not without were we need some intermediary to tell us what God wants of us. Jesus did not need the church, clergy or its hierarchy. And it was his goal that all people find his reality. But the church and clergy do their best to make themselves so important in indispensable. The never talk about how to graduate from their religion and be a Christ or be God. If you get into their religion you are trapped for life.

We now call Paul's movement Christianity. As somebody pointed out to me that is Christ-anti, the way of the Anti-Christ. Nothing that is hidden that will not later be revealed (Matthew 10:26).

This is what happened to my sister and this is what I have seen happen to all the Christians that I have met. Not one has ever graduated and become confident in their ability to listen to that still, quiet voice within. They are trapped. And my name is Freedom.

An old Chinese saying says, if you give them a fish, the eat for a day. But if you teach them to fish they feast for a lifetime. If you give them a fish they do eat for a day AND they are dependent upon you for a fish tomorrow. They is how you create bondage. BUT, if you teach people who to take care of themselves then you will be showing them a way to be liberated from needing you. If you are faithless you wound not want that. But if you have faith and love in your heart then that is what you will want.

When I go into a church today I listen to see how much they focus on the teaching of the apostles. The more they focus on those teachings the darker, more fearful the people are and the less they seem to know about Jesus' way, truth and life.

It is the faithlessness of the apostles that has manifested as the doctrine of Christianity. This is the leavening of the scribes and Pharisees that Jesus warned people about.

Mat 16:6: "Take heed and beware of the leaven of the Pharisees and of the Sadducees...he bade them not beware of the leaven of bread, but of the doctrine of the Pharisees and of the Sadducees." This is his warning about the faithlessness of the doctrine of religious teachers and rulers.

Mark 8:15: "Take heed, beware of the leaven of the Pharisees, and of the leaven of Herod. " Here he adds to be aware of faithlessness of the government rulers too.

Jesus seemed to recognize the faithlessness of his followers. He kept saying to them, "Ye of so little faith." (Matthew 8:26, 14:31, 16:8, to mention a few). They did not have the faith that they could be as Jesus, an equal to him in God's eyes. These faithless people think this is impossible, but they do not remember that Jesus himself said this is possible, that if you have faith as a grain of mustard seed, nothing will be impossible to you (Matthew 17:20).

That is why none of the followers every reached the kingdom of heaven or realized what Jesus was offering. They all believed it was only possible for Jesus. Therefore, all the followers became those who neither entered the kingdom of heaven nor allowed others too. Blind Guides.

Christianity was founding by the blind who would lead the blind. But all religions were founded by the blind who would lead the blind. It is the nature of religion, the nature of organizations and institutions with their hierarchy to become corrupt. Hierarchy creates centralized power and power corrupts. When an organization become absolute as the Christian church did then it become an absolute power. Power corrupts and absolute power corrupts absolutely. The church had no choice but to become corrupt.

And it should. As all teachers and leaders who gain power should and will become corrupt. Then it becomes the duty of the students to overcome that corruption. It becomes the task of the followers to graduate from that institution, just as we graduate from high school. If we stayed in high school for the rest of our lives we would not grow where we are individually suppose to grow. We need to get out of the institutions to become who we were suppose to be. And we can come back and encourage others to graduate from the institutions.

We are to graduate from all worldly authority and only listen to the true authority, which is within us, which is that which primitive people call God.

Jesus encourage people to leave their mothers and fathers, to even hate your mothers and fathers, to graduate from parental authority. (Matthew 10:35,19:5, 19:29, Mark 7:12, and so on)

Jesus said to honor your mother and father but he did not say to obey them (Matthew 15:4).

Fear is the power of darkness. If we serve our fears then we are serving the dark side.

First remove the log from your own eyes before trying to remove the splinter from your brothers eye, Jesus said. Christian, do not try to teach others about faith is your faith is lacking. First, be perfect, as the Father in Heaven is Perfect, as Jesus said. Once you are Perfect then you can show others how to realize they are perfect too.

I have said many times to Christians that they can know God the way Jesus knew God. But they always say that is not possible, for Jesus was the only begotten son. If they knew Jesus, if they bothered to read and try to understand Jesus teaching in the gospels, then they would know that Jesus said, "If you have faith as a grain of mustard seed, you will say to this mountain, `Move from here to there,' and it will move; and nothing will be impossible to you." (Matthew 17:20) Therefore, if you have faith as a grain of mustard seed then you could know God the way Jesus knew God.

Of all the characters in the Bible, Jesus was the one who knew God the best. So if you want to know God you study Jesus' way, his truth and his life. If you say that anything is impossible then you are showing that you still do not know Jesus.
Religion is of the faithless, by the faithless, for the faithless. The religious are losers at love. They settle for the mediocrity of social and turn their back on perfect, unconditional, divine love. They are the blind leading the blind, the faithless leading the faithless.

Religion is a social club to commiserate with one another in their ignorance and cowardliness. Misery loves company so that is why the religious want to suck you into their club.

Religious people seek the approval of others, that is why they join religions. They accept the tenets of the religion so that they can be accepted into the social club. Once approved of by the group then they have permission to feel good about themselves and they can experience some level of goodness. Of course, this is only conditional approval and goodness.

Religious people seem to me to be living in total denial of their faithlessness. When confronted with their faithless doctrines they deny that they are faithless. They admit that they have not found what is offered in their scriptures and also that no body else can find it. Then they go forth and say that the scriptures are true. Pure denial.

 

Corrupt leaders

Jesus told his followers, "If ye had known me, ye should have known my Father also." (John 8:19:). He also said that he came to serve, not be served. (Luke 22:27) "I am among you as one who serves." So God is here to serve humanity, not humanity there to serve God.

This is not what the clergy want the people to think. The corrupt will teach we are here to serve God and the clergy (or church) who is the mouthpiece for God. They are here to find the uneducated, gullible, shallow or ignorant person and get them to believe that the service of the church or clergy is the service of God. But this is the teachings of the Antichrist.

People who intentionally keep people in the dark are serving the dark side. They are miss guided people.

All those who seek power in the world, and that includes religious leader, want absolute power. So they try to create some sort of exclusivity the way a company tries to be the only provider of their product. Those who seek power do not want competition. They tell people that they are the only way to get what they want. They would say that their guru is the 'only begotten son' or that their guru is the 'last prophet' or that they are 'God's chosen people.' All of these are, of course, false. They are just signs of the corruption of those who propagate these ideas. That is why these traditions have all become so corrupt.

Letting the Dead Bury the Dead

At some point I gave up talking to Christians. I recognized that I do not want to cast my pearls before swine less they trample on them and turn on me. Most of them are so dead in their words, concepts and beliefs that they are not willing to look at something that is outside the boxes in their minds. Most of them are comfortable with mediocrity. They really do not care about finding what Jesus offered, the Kingdom of Heaven. They really do not care about what Jesus was about, they only concern themselves with the 'pill' of salvation, the belief (lie) that Jesus died for their sins.

Since they do not care about themselves then I guess that they do not think they are worth it. They do not care about themselves or their families. For what better gift could one give to those they love then to demonstrate that it is possible to get completely free from our darkness; that we can enter the Kingdom of Heaven now, while here on earth.

So I gave up on Christians. This does not mean that I am not open to them, it only means that I will not reach out to them.

Those who make Jesus' death more important than his life are the ones I see as being most in the dark, the most dead. They seem most concerned with death, sin and punishment because they are constantly looking into the future. they have turned their back on Jesus' teachings that say, be not concerned about tomorrow. They have turned their back to Jesus' teachings. That is why they worship the falseness of his dying on the cross for their sins. That is why they are trapped in their sins, they do not take responsibility for their own behavior.

Did Jesus die for our sins? Well, kind of. He died because of the sinful nature of the hard hearted, conservative religious people of his time got angry (anger being one of the Seven Deadly Sins) with Jesus and killed him. It was because of their sins that Jesus died. He was bearing witness to the truth of the religious people's own conditioned emotional self abusive behavior that lead them to murder and innocent person. Jesus died because people sinned, because they abused themselves emotionally and then they abused others (Jesus).

Salvation

I do not get the concept of Salvation. It seems totally in denial of truth and Jesus' teachings.

Jesus taught, "Take therefore no thought for the morrow: for the morrow shall take thought for the things of itself. Sufficient unto the day is the evil thereof." (Matthew 6:34) So why be concerned about what is to happen to your soul when you die? That is tomorrow, not today.

This is such a faithless doctrine. One could only believe in salvation if they believed that there was ANY chance that God would every abandon anyone. That just shows those who believe in salvation have no faith in God's perfect and unconditional love.

Truth liberates so that which does not speak of freedom is not of the truth. so why would you think you have to accept Jesus as your Lord and Savior in order to go to Heaven. Why would you still believe in the falseness of a finite soul?

The concept of love that salvation creates for us is one that is not unconditional or a hundred percent forgiving. Since God is love if we belief that there is a chance that the loving God will not forgive us no matter what then we will doubt the love of this God. This is a way to destroy the faith in God of the believer.

People who believe in salvation still do not understand unconditional love. They can only think in terms of conditional love, a love that is like barter or commerce. They are projecting their lack of ability to love on their god.

The doctrine of Salvation is of the faithless, by the faithless and for the faithless.

Doing the Best They Could

I returned to Lake Tahoe, the home of my youth and tried to get connected there. One of the first places I went was to the church I had attended when I was a child. I got a meeting with the pastor and started to tell him about my experiences and perceptions, particularly about Christianity. He was an older and pretty mellow (read liberal) guy. He did not get upset at me for wanting to continue on where Jesus left off. Of course, he had his resistance to the ideas I was presenting but he did not get angry.

He told me I had the "Savior Complex" the desire to save the world. He said that I was not needed since Jesus had already saved the world.

I asked him what Jesus had saved people from, for they looked to be in hell to me. He said they were saved from their sins. I responded they were not even saved from the delusions of their sins so they were still in hell.

Yep, I had a full on case of savior complex. And I was as deluded as Jesus was when he had the savior complex. We wanted to save the world from themselves. I was fresh in my enlightenment just as Jesus was and I wanted to offer what I had to everybody. I wanted to save them from the suffering of their original sin, the sin of thinking they are separate from God. I wanted them to see that God (us) can not sin, we can only BELIEVE we are capable of sin. It is our belief in our separateness that creates the delusion of sin.

But if we are not separate from God then we are not in peril. If we are not in peril then what do we need to be saved from.

Nothing of course. But it would take me sometime to realize that. I was, after all, the newly enlightened guy, just like Jesus had been when he wanted to save the world.

We were stupid and needed to let the enlightenment manifest into our consciousness some more.

We do not NEED to save anybody. We GET to go out and save people. We can save them from themselves, from their beliefs that trap them into limited ways of thinking. We get to wake people up to the perfection that they can experience, but we do not have to wake them up.

Silly me. I am grateful for this pastor who confronted me on my delusions of thinking the world needed saving. I am sad that Jesus did not have somebody like that when he was around. Oh, well, I guess we had to first develop the concept of Christ Complex before we could use it to wake one another up. I am really glad I did not have to go so far as to get myself murdered just because I was trapped in my delusion that we needed to be saved.

Thanks Jesus, for showing me where I do not want to go.

Of course, people reading this will think that I am crazy. For they believe that people are endangered. People are miserable and trapped in their reality. People still believe that somebody does need to come along and help them, to save them from themselves. People still believe they are the flesh.

Ok, so people never needed to be saved, but what then do I want to offer to people?

At this time I taught a class on Freedom from Fear or Overcoming Fear. In this small town of Lake Tahoe and on a Friday night I had eighteen people show up for the class. Almost everybody thought it was very helpful. I felt a real sense of confidence after that this class, but I did not like the focus being on the negative (fear) so I never tried that class again. I wanted to find a more positive way of saying the same thing.

I had a lot of time on my hands. I had time to think about a lot of things. I made it my priority to have time to look at humanities problems. I remember watching the 'Roots' mini series on TV some place and being very saddened for the slaves. But I was not just saddened for the slaves of hundreds of years ago, I was saddened for the slaves of today. I could see that we no longer use whips and chains but people today are still just as much slaves as they were two hundred years ago.

I imagined the black Africans getting off the boat here in America for the first time. They would have chains on their bodies to keep them from running away and they would not understand the words that the slave drivers were saying to them when they beat them with the whips.

The slave drivers were not happy either. They had to beat and scream at the new slaves to get them to move or do anything. Clearly these slaves would have to be trained.

So the process began of 'educating' the new slaves on their situation and the new language of their owners. Every time they were hit with the whip the slave driver would call them 'nigger' so that they would associate the word with pain. Eventually the owner would only have to use the word 'nigger' to get the slave to wince in anticipation of the pain. The wincing itself would cause the pain that would eventually motivate the slave.

But how could you get the slave to work in the fields and not run away. You had to teach them they there was not escape, that this was their dutiful position in life, that if they were good slaves then they could go to slave heaven when they died. If you repeat this enough then the slaves would begin to believe it. For the ones that did not they would have to be destroyed as unusable.

Hence, you have the slaves believing that this was their rightful lot and that there was no escape. To motivate them you programming them to abuse themselves emotionally just stimulated by a few words.

Of course, so people realized that this system worked so well that it did not need to be limited to just the African slaves. It could be used on anyone who would not question the beliefs or who could be easily programmed with words to abuse themselves. And today we do not call them slaves. We call them citizens, employees and the religious.

As children we are taught to fear the word bad when our parents spank us and yell bad at the same time. This is no different than calling the slaves nigger when they beat them. The whips become our own reactions to words.

We do not use metal chains for the slaves today. We use mental chains. We have replace the slaves metal chains with mental chains.

The Bible Works if we give it a chance.

I want to be honest with myself. The truth is that I do not know whether or not Jesus ever existed. I do know that there are a lot of good things in the Bible and if I apply them to my life it works, it improves the quality of my life experience. Just as there are a lot of really dumb things in the Bible that maybe made sense back when they were written but do not make sense now. And I do not to ever apply those things to my life.

I think reading the Bible was a good exercise. I got to read it, to study it, to challenge it, to question it, until I could see or discern between what was true today and what was not true for today. The mythology of whether Jesus walked on water, changed water into wine, died on a cross and resurrected or not is totally irrelevant to me.

What is real for me is the example of the way he lived his life and the truths that he taught about and applied to his life to improve the quality of his life. There are a lot of things in the Bible that also help improve the quantity of the life.

There are a lot of things that I think Jesus made mistakes with, that were wrong. Maybe they were alright for him and his time but they are definitely wrong for today.

One of those things is that you do not teach people about love unless you can love yourself. You have to be able to love yourself before you can love another. That is the Great Commandment, to love God with all your heart, with all your mind, and all your strength and so forth, AND thy neighbor as thyself. Logically that means that you have to start with being able to love yourself first before you are able to love your neighbor, before you are able to love some mythological deity in the sky.

So loving yourself does not mean that you walk in and let somebody brutalize and kill you. So Jesus was wrong in that. At least wrong in his example.

And yes, I know, the Christians will say that he died for our sins, but that is a crock of bull. Nobody else can die for your sins, just as nobody can die for you. But Jesus could lead the way, if you care enough to see that and apply his teachings to your life.

What really hurts me about the Christians, and why they really bug me is how they have turned their back on Jesus' teachings. They honor him with their mouths but their hearts are far from him. They neither enter the kingdom of heaven nor do they allow others too. They are the hypocrites that Jesus condemned in his teachings, in his life and in his ministry. They have become those hypocrites. The more conservative they are the more hypocritical they are. They have no interest in Jesus, in his way, his truth and in his life.

Since I no longer felt that Jesus had anything to offer me, that I was an equal to him, I would on occasion say something like that to people, mostly Christians. They, of course, would either get angry or scoff that what I said. Inevitably they would challenge me by telling me to perform some miracle. They wanted to see the same kind of miracles that is in the mythology of Jesus. They wanted to see me get in my sleigh with my reindeer and fly around. Oh, no, that is the myth of Santa Claus. These people do not realize that the real miracle is what can happen within if they are open to it. They are still looking for the answer outside of themselves.

Sometimes it amazes me that people are so unintelligent or gullible. How can someone not see that the Bible is metaphoric. If we look at the Bible as literal then we miss most, if not all of the true value it has to us. But if we look at the story as metaphoric then we will see the greater meanings offered. Jesus' parables are not just to learn about farming, as in the sower of seeds. It is to tell a deeper meaning of those that can understand deeper meanings then the obvious.

The metaphor that Jesus used in Matthew 24 to tell of the end times was for these generation that heard him. "This generation will not pass away till all these things take place." (Matthew 24:34) The end times was and is something that happens to us all. It is an inner experience, not an outer experience. This end times is part of the process of waking up. We all will do it, although most people will only do it in the last few minutes of their life as they let go of life.

Jesus and I are only advocating that we go through this process now instead of caring with us all the burdens of life, like the guilt of sin.

The bible is at best, a primitive document. The authors were primitive in their understanding of human motivation. Their language is archaic, inarticulate, inaccurate and not efficient at helping people to get to what they want.

This book could help people better understand human motivation. Armed with that knowledge a person could then go back and see were and how the primitives missed the point.

I was still very judgmental. I would experience a person and come up with all sorts of judgements about them, mostly about where they were trapped or hurting themselves.

Of course, I noticed that people did the same about me. They would say that I was hurting myself with my beliefs and particularly my attitudes to life.

I remember talking to a person who said that she was enlightened. I did not see her as enlightened at all. And I remember going to listen to various gurus talk who were billed as enlightened. I started to wonder, does it really matter what others think of us or is it more important what we think of ourselves.

I think of myself as enlightened. I do not act enlightened all the time. In fact, I probably act unenlightened most of the time. So what? It is not our actions that make the quality of our life experience, it is our attitude. If I 'think' I am enlightened and I feel enlightened then so what if some poor smuck does not like who I am, I still like who I am.

Anything I think somebody else SHOULD be is based on some image I have in my mind of what they should be. This is idolatry. This comes from not understanding the second of the Ten Commandments, "Thou shalt not make unto thee any graven image, or any likeness of any thing that is in heaven above, or that is in the earth beneath, or that is in the water under the earth." (Numbers 20:4) This, of course, includes images in our mind of what should be or should not be in order to experience God. AND, of course, if I should think I know what is good and what is evil, what is right and what is wrong, then I have forgotten the first then the Bible was trying to tell me. (Genesis 2:16: Do not take of the tree of knowledge of good and evil. Do not think you know what is good and what is evil.)

I am still pretty stupid sometimes and forget this. Silly me.

So I started to ask people questions to see how THEY think of themselves. If they are happy with their lives I have nothing to offer. If they are not then I will offer what I can. If they think of themselves as enlightened then I might question what they mean by that but I will remain open minded about it. It does not matter to me if a person thinks of themselves as enlightened, as God, as a living Christ, or as the greatest gift to mankind since food. I want to appreciate them anyway so I will. Period.

Even if I think of myself as a living Christ, and I do, so what? What difference does that make to anyone but me. I do see lots of very unconscious people make that important, but then that I part of the reason why we (people like Jesus and myself) say things like that. We are here to bear witness to the truth of their habitual, emotional, self-abusive behavior of getting angry at what people say. We are here to wake these type of people up.

Jesus sure did a good job when he pissed off the conservatives by saying that he and God were one (John 10:30). They wanted to kill him for it. Glad he had a quick verse from the scriptures to confuse them while he quickly slipped out of town.

I want to find out how people are experiencing life. Is it the way they want to experience life? Can they love themselves the way they are? If so, then I have nothing to offer them, they are doing fine. But if they see themselves or the world through the eyes of negativity then there is something I can offer them.

I had a friend who was many years younger than myself. He had had an emotionally challenging life and was looking for some guidance in that regard. At one point he made a copy of my old journals and was reading the parts about my challenging times. These included my thoughts of death and suicide. Since I had come through these hard times and seemed to be doing pretty well he wanted know how I had accomplished this.

He had asked me how to deal with his pain and I did not have a good answer. He wanted to know how to have fun again. He felt trapped in his fear and negativity just as I had but I had not simple way to show him how to get out of it.

He got caught up in the drama of life and particularly in his imaginings. He imagined that his girlfriend's family was hunting him for having sex with her. He wrote me that he saw no way out of it. Before I could respond he killed himself.

After his death it haunted me that I was not able to help him. I wanted something to offer people like Darren but I did not have something concrete. I wanted to understand how I get back to enjoying life, how I get back to having fun.

I felt a certain desire or commitment to find a way to help the Darrens of the world. So I started to seek a way to reach out to others.

Somebody once showed me a tape of a story on the television news magazine 20/20 about a girl who had half her brain removed when she was five years old. She had had something wrong with that part of her brain that caused her to go into seizures about 150 times a day. There seizures were very painful so she wanted her parents to do whatever they could to stop them.

After the operation they brought her home in a wheelchair for she was no longer able to remotely function on her own. The doctors said that she would probably be pretty much a vegetable the rest of her life. But the parents did not accept that so they started to ask every doctor or specialist that could find what they could do for their daughter. None had an answer until they came upon this one woman doctor who recommended that they challenge, challenge, challenge, stimulate, stimulate, stimulate. That was it.

The father agreed to bring home the bacon and the mother agreed to take on the task of challenging and stimulating their daughter with half a brain. Her mother immediately enrolled her daughter in normal school classes and sent her to school in a wheelchair.

Remember, she was five years old.

Advance the story to the present (at least as far as the 20/20 story is concerned) and now this girl is fourteen years old. The girl is now at the TOP of her class in school. She likes music and to dance (remember the wheelchair.) The right side of the brain is considered to be responsible for such things as music appreciation.

The girl could not walk normally but could walk. Her parents suggested that they get a handicap decal for their car so they could park in the handicap parking. The girl asked, "Who is handicapped?" for she did not consider herself to be handicapped.

Of course, this is an extraordinary story. The real hero in this story is mother who tirelessly keep working with her daughter even when she was feed up with the effort. It was the constant challenging and stimulating that allowed this girl to come all the way back to being who she was.

I feel that with challenging and stimulating ANYBODY can overcome any mental or emotional handicap.

I remember in my process that I was fully focused on the task of getting free. I forced myself to be challenging and stimulating to myself. I rarely let up. I felt that I was constantly challenged BY my handicap of habitual anger. I had to overcome it or die.

Now, I want to be challenging and stimulating for others. I want to challenge and stimulate humanity to be all that it can be. I recognize that we are our own worst enemy. I recognize that we can use all the help we can get. I recognize that most of the time I am more on people's side then they are.

This was the motivation behind my confrontational nature. I am particularly confrontational when I hear people teaching or preaching faithlessness or fear based philosophies. I am willing and able to challenged the authority of falseness. I do this as a service to those who as of yet have not developed their ability to question, challenge and confront authority.

We can see in the bible that Jesus was also very confrontational. He would confront the hypocrisy of the religious leaders of his day. It is obvious that he perceived that the religious leaders were leading the people astray; the blind leading the blind and both shall fall into a pit. (Matthew 15:14)

Like Jesus I want to confront or challenge those who are preaching the darkness not so much those who are just living in it. It is the doctrine of darkness that I want to challenge, not the conscious choice to experience it. For the doctrine of darkness (that which limits) entraps people in the experience of darkness, fear and negativity. It limits their experience of love. Any doctrine that discourages perfect, unconditional love is the doctrine of darkness.

To care about people and to care about love is to challenge all doctrines and propagators of the doctrines of darkness.

I can also see that there is a time to challenge the dead to awaken them. The most dead are those who are trapped in the unconscious state, they are most asleep. They have no self discipline and no respect for themselves or for others. helping them find discipline is to give them limits to protect themselves until they can grow out of those limits. So the well meaning person might offer a limit here or there, but they do not acknowledge that those limits are only temporary until a person can graduate from the limit.

Take for example the alcoholic person who enters a twelve step program. They are taught that once an alcoholic they will always be an alcoholic so they can never touch alcohol again. This limitation is false as all limitations are. Yet, to tell the alcoholic that they should not drink alcohol until they have gained mastery over themselves is appropriate. The truth is the limit is only a step and not an absolute.

When a person is really asleep and abusive to themselves and others then the faithless person will try to bring the 'fear of God' into them is a way of waking them up. These faithless have doubt the effectiveness of the truth. The truth liberates, not limits.

My purpose in life is to confront this faithlessness, to challenge people to be all they can be and to stimulate their interest in being perfect in their love. I have complete faith that if we continue to challenge and stimulate one another that we will all wake up someday.

In the debate between nurture and nature I tend to have a lot of faith in our ability to change. So I tend to lean on the nurture side a lot. I am not one hundred percent on the side of nurture so I acknowledge our human nature and accept that some things take a lot of time. This allows me to relax, take it easy and forgive.