Resistance to understanding is as natural as the body's resistance to the light of the sun. The more dense the material the more resistance it gives the light. The more dense the mind the more resistance to new ideas.

I think it was Einstein who said, "The Great spirits have always found resistance from mediocre minds." The real question is how can we make our minds less resistant?

When the body resists the light of the sun we get hot and burned. When the mind resists understanding we get angry (hot under the collar, burned up). Resistance to the sunlight keeps us warm. Resistance to new ideas and understanding keeps us challenged and motivated. Without resistance and understanding there would be no life.

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Balance

In life all things are always moving about a center or balance point. If things get too far out of balance in one direction or the other they spring back in the other direction. There are short and long-term cycles, but they always come back. In any one limited time frame things appear out of balance, with an expanded focus one can perceive the balance.

Yet, human experience is of a limited time frame. Our experience may be of only one trend or direction and, if we stay narrowly focused, we feel trapped by the events.

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Respect

All respect starts with self-respect. We judge other people by how they tend to judge themselves. If people show little or no respect for themselves then other people will not respect them either.

If we look at our past we will always be able to judge it because we are evolving. But if we look at our future and where we are going then our direction of looking will be up. If we do not have a plan or goal for changing ourselves then we may be depressed and look down on ourselves. If we look at our past and we look at where we have come then we will have more appreciation or respect for our self.

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Meaning

What is meaning and how do we place meaning on something? In essence there is no meaning to anything unless we place that meaning there. Meaning comes from what we value or appreciate. If we have learned to appreciate everything then everything has value and meaning. But meaning has a subtle assumption to it. Meaning has a implication of importance, which is a product of narrow mindedness. Essentially, meaning is a product of our fears or habitual contraction. We give meaning to those things that make us feel good or that threaten those things that makes us feel good. If we are masters over our emotions then, at least emotionally, we can feel good no matter what happens and then nothing has meaning.

The Bible says, "All is meaningless." Jesus teaches us not "store our treasures here on earth" or to not make anything important or meaningful here on earth. If things have meaning then we will have fear related to the potential loss of those things. Clinging to meaning of things, including people, is a self abusive behavior. For rest and inner peace we let go of meaning.

If we never put meaning on anything then we are missing out on the richness of life. Without meaning life has no passion. Without passion there is no compassion. Without compassion there is no love. What is life without love?

The greatest meaning that we can have is to put meaning on our reaction to what life offers. Are we reaction with appreciation, joy and love or are we reacting with fear?

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Attachment

Attachment creates fear. Attachment is the habitual practice of making something, anything, important. The importance we place on it creates a fear of loosing it.

Importance is narrowing our awareness down. It is the practice of ignorance; ignoring what else is going on, what else has value.

Attachment and importance create passion and vitality. Without them there would be no richness to life. Too much attachment and importance and they destroy the quality or richness of life.

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Words

The children chant "Sticks and stones may break my bones but words will never harm me." What the children know intrinsically many adults have forgotten. WORDS DO NOT HURT PEOPLE; PEOPLE'S REACTIONS TO WORDS CAUSE INJURY.

Words convey information but we have also been programmed to respond to words emotionally so that others can control us. Ninety-five percent of human suffering is self-inflicted by our emotional conditioning. Overcoming the negative affects of words is getting free of our programming. Basically this means learning to relax and not react to the words.

This is the most important thing I can think of to share with people. Yet it is the last thing that people will understand.

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Play

We are so programmed with "have to's" and musts that we have forgotten that we get to play with life. Life can be play, it can be fun. When we are innocent like children we get to reenter the kingdom of heaven. When we can forget about tomorrow and yesterday and just enjoy the present we are playing with life.

If what we are doing is not fun or enjoyable then why do it? We do something because we believe we need to, because we do not have faith that all will be taken care of.

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Health

Tension is disease. Health is relaxed. Emotional or mental tension, if held too long becomes physical disease. An angry, guilty or fearful person manifests disease sooner or later. Therefore, disease starts in the mind and so does health.

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Beginning

What do I want? That is the real first question that I asked myself that started my search for self, release, peace, etc. What do I ACTUALLY want? Not what I believe I want or what I have been told I want, but I really want now, this moment.

After much soul searching I finally came up with the simple reality that I wanted to feel good. I wanted to feel good physically, mentally, emotionally, or whatever level or other aspect I could experience or feel.

But what is "good"?

By observing the body I noticed that I "felt" good when there was a release of tension. Tension, when held was experience as bad, negative or painful.

There is constant tension and release, expansion and contraction, in the body, but by focusing in on either the tension or release the body will move in that direction. Releasing the tension, and getting back to good or getting to a better good, can be done by either focusing in on the tension or the release. The quicker way is to focus on the tension.

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Crisis

There is no reason to live in fear of anything.

Imagine an atom bomb. The atom bomb is built by taking a ball of plutonium and surrounding it with high explosives, that is then covered by a hard shell. To detonate the bomb you simultaneous detonate all the high explosives around the ball of plutonium causing an implosion on the plutonium. The resulting compression takes the plutonium to critical mass where the atoms lose their binding power and come apart. Thus resulting in the explosion. This explosion is a VERY bring light (and a lot of fire and a big bang.)

This same process can work on humans with the resulting "enlightenment.

If a human implodes upon themselves, physically, emotionally, mentally and spiritually, allowing no release or excuse to get out , then they will come to a breaking point or to critical mass of a cathartic crisis. The crisis will cause a radical change in perceptions, attitude and ways of thinking that transforms the person for life. Although nothing has changed outside (even the behaviors may not change in the beginning) everything has changed inside in the quality of the perception of life.

One "implodes" by focusing every bit of energy they have on an object (thought, feeling, idea, fear doubt, whatever we feel a sense of NOness about) and holding this object until they can no longer hold it, until they no longer care about it, then letting it go. The Let Go is a release, the liberation of the mind, body, soul and spirit.

When this thought or object is your MOST VALUED thought or object that you are then totally free. What do we value more than our own being, body, mind, soul or spirit? When we let go of our separateness, individuality or ego then we are free of the little self.

I have found that few are willing to go to this kind of hell to get to the Perfect Heaven of the other side.

In physics there is a law that roughly says that if something moving in a certain direction at a certain speed it will continue until interrupted by some other force. That interruption is called a crisis.

If we are trapped in a vicious cycle of fear and self-abuse it is the crisis that helps us break out of the cycle. For those people who are most caught in this cycle they spend most of their time avoiding or preparing for the crisis. The fear of the crisis creates a perpetual crisis.

For those people who consciously want to break the cycle of fear and abuse they force the crisis. Crisis, after all, is only change.

Let us say that the world is getting uglier and uglier m ore corrupt and evil in you opinion. Life is degenerating, a more collapse. With this ugliness you are less able to appreciate what life offers. Then lets us say that you have a life threatening illness or accident. This crisis will cause you to reflect (usually all you can do while you are laid up waiting to heal) and to realize how much you value life and what you have.

After this crisis you will, at least for a time, see the world for a more positive perspective, you will see the beauty in the world. The 'crisis' has brought about a cathartic change in your attitude and perception that has improved your life experience.

I have person had many such experiences and have read of many other people who have had life threatening illness that caused them to reevaluate their lives, their values and their beliefs. The crisis brought about the change of direction that their life was taking.

Since our negative beliefs and attitudes are a product of our fears or attachments confronting our fears is the way to liberate us to having the highest quality of life that we can have.

Let me use the analogy of an atomic bomb to show how it works.

The atom bomb is built by taking a ball of plutonium and surrounding it with high explosives, that is then covered by a hard shell. To detonate the bomb you simultaneous detonate all the high explosives around the ball of plutonium causing an implosion on the plutonium. The resulting compression takes the plutonium to critical mass where the atoms lose their binding power and come apart. Thus resulting in the explosion. This explosion is a VERY bring light (and a lot of fire and a big bang.)

This same process can work on humans with the resulting "enlightenment.

I have found that few are willing to go to this kind of hell to get to the Perfect Heaven of the other side.

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Evil

Evil is a good thing when we can step back from it and see the value it offers us. Evil is that which destroys life or the quality of life. We define something as evil or as a sin to awaken us to the danger that it includes, but once we have gained a healthy respect of it then we can again practice appreciating it.

For an example a snake; to teach children that snakes can be dangerous we call them evil. Then we learn to respect them and know that they can bite us if we get to close. But when we respectful of the snake then we can study them (from a distance) and appreciate their beauty and value to life; we can again learn to love them and accept them in our world.

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Beliefs

Beliefs are lies to our selves. The truth will set you free from your fears. A belief is to be in the lie.

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Scripture

Scripture is the law of the dead, by the dead, for the dead. The living law of God comes directly to you in silence and stillness.

Book of Lies: the bible is Satan's book of lies, but a very good text book or tool to developing your ability to see falsehoods. The book itself will show you that it is false, if you study it and do the exercises it describes.

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Inner peace

Not world peace but peace WITH the world and all it's conflicts, wars and challenges. Inner Peace is what allows a person to give more liberally to others. The lack of inner peace is what makes a person conservative.

The bigger the perspective the more peace we will have. The more narrow minded we are the more passion and disease we will have.

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Perfect Love

To really get free one has to go at the dark side of life. One has to seek to see the good, the beauty, the perfection in that which is ugly, bad, dark and sick; like death, disease and violence. Until you can love this love is not perfect. Your love will not go there until you have the perfect truth that sets you free to perfectly enjoy and love all that life offers.

BUT is this worth it. If you go so far out there in your ability to love then others will be afraid of you. Nobody will want to play with you. It is very lonely at the top.

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Mosaic of Life

Most of the people of the world spend their time examining life by sliding their nose over the ragged edges of the glass pieces that make up the mosaic of life. All they see is broken glass and the injury it causes their nose. If they were to step back and expand their perception they would no longer injury themselves and would be able to appreciate, enjoy and love the beautiful and perfect mosaic that is life.

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The Light

What is it about the light that draws the moth to it, sometimes unto death. The light invigorates and enlivens. To be technical, the photons that make up light waves agitate the molecules and atoms of any matter they hit, whether they be water molecules or the molecules and cells of our bodies. The light of the sun invigorates and enlivens us, but if you spend too much time in it you will get burned.

Light is more than a wave of photons, it is a metaphor for such things as happiness, joy, love, peace freedom and truth. I write about where the twain meet.

Of course, happiness, joy, love, peace, freedom and truth are human perceptions. For what "makes" one person happy may not do the same for the next. Why? If you take two different cups of water and expose them to the same sunlight both will warm up and evaporate at the same rate. Why do people not appreciate the same things? Why can one person find Nirvana or Heaven and another suffer a life of misery and fear?

It is probably an age old question, one that many have pondered and researched, including this one. It was a question that burned inside of me; I had to know. I was even willing to die just to understand. Willing and able. In fact, it was death, my death, which enabled me to see it all.

Interesting about this thing called death. We all have ideas and beliefs about it but who do you know who has actually experienced it? May car "died" in traffic the other day. Somebody talks about his or her "near-death" experience. A mouse is "killed" and frozen in suspended animation then brought back to life. Playing billiards one day I hit the queue ball towards another ball and it hits it straight on with a smack. The other ball shoots off and the queue ball stops dead, for a second or more, then mysteriously starts to move again.

A seed sits dormant for thousands of years, then when the right conditions arise the seed sprouts to life. The right conditions, of course, included light.

A person may have an idea or dream that lays dormant for many years. Then when the right conditions arise, including the light of understanding, the dream or idea starts to manifest.

Understanding is really that light that enables the fuller life experiences of happiness, joy, love, peace and freedom. With understanding of how the human instrument operates we can maximize the quality, and quantity of the life experiences.

In primitive times they call the methods and understanding of our Inner Light either religion or spirituality. Exactness or science was discouraged or even forbidden. So bringing a detailed understanding to the arena of social consciousness is has its problems. How to articulate this without offending the less prepared is the challenge.

Why the resistance to understanding of our human instruments? This is the first topic of discussion in the first chapter. It is real and important for if one does not understand it they may not get beyond that chapter. And understanding is all that separates us from the happiness, joy, love, peace and freedom we naturally desire.

How much Inner Light can we have? Unto Perfection, all that we want. If one person can find it, and many have, including this one, then everybody can. Skeptical, then challenge yourself to read it all. For proof is in the pudding. You can prove it to yourself or disprove it to yourself. The choice is yours. But if you are open, willing and ready then why not prove it to yourself. All you have to gain is everything. All you have to lose is your life of misery.

Beauty is in the eye of the beholder, and so is ugliness, good and evil, heaven and hell. With skill beauty is a choice, so is love. Wouldn't you prefer a life of beauty, happiness, joy, love, peace and freedom? With understanding and practice it becomes a skill and a choice. A book can help you understand but only you can give yourself the loving practice that makes the skill. The question is, are you worth it? Hopefully, there is at least a spark of light in there that enables you to see that you are. And even if not, you can cultivate that too.

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Resistance to Understanding

A child has no resistance to understanding so we much be taught to fear the light of understanding. Understanding empowers people, people that without understanding can be easily controlled and manipulated. Rulers (parents, teachers, clergy, government and others) preach the evils of understanding to keep their subjects or servants. Rulers, authorities of all kinds, can be tyrants or teachers. The teachers you toward understanding everything so that you will be free of them. A tyrant discourse exploration.

We are taught to fear understanding of ourselves. We agree with or to that teaching because we feel that the mystery creates value as familiarity breeds contempt. We fell or sense that understanding this human instrument and more particularly the human "heart" or "being" we will lose our sense of respect for ourselves. With the loss of respect will come neglect and eventually death. So it is also a source of self-preservation that keeps us from seeking understanding.

The reality is that this perception or sense of doom with understanding is partially true. But whether we like it or not, change (and doom) is inevitable, but understand brings with it quality. With understanding you may not fight so hard to win or even survive, but you will enjoy the experience more. The struggle and resistance to understanding and life will only destroy the quality of that life, and the quantity. As it is written, "if you save your life you lose it."

Somebody once said, "be like a child to enter the kingdom of heaven." A child has not resistance to understanding.

Resistance to understanding is a natural as the body's resistance to light of the sun. The more dense the material the more resistance it gives the light. The more dense the mind the more resistance to ideas and understanding.

I think it was Einstein who said, "Great spirits have always found resistance from mediocre minds." The real question is how can we make our minds less resistant?

When a body resists the light of the sun we get hot and burned. When the mind resists understanding we get angry (hot under the collar, burned up.) Resistance to the sunlight keeps us warm. Resistance to ideas and understanding keep us challenged and motivated. Without resistance and understanding there would be no life.

Resistance new ideas or understanding happens when are brain is forced to create new neuron pathways. The heating up is burning in new pathways. By relaxing and allowing for this process it goes quicker and easier. Allow the resistance to be there and appreciate the process. This is like greasing the way for it to happen faster.

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Spectrum of Experience

Two people can be looking at the same picture in a museum. The first sees it as beautiful and has a beautiful experience. The second sees it as ugly and has an ugly experience.

When we are conscious of our nature desires and motivations we recognize that what we want to experience is beauty, happiness, joy, love, peace and freedom. What most people do not realize is that how we react to what life offers is a choice, a skill that comes with patient, persistent practice.

Our reactions to the stimuli that makes up or life experiences can be compared to the mathematical spectrum of numbers. In the middle is zero or no reaction. To the left is the negative numbers or negative experiences or reactions. To the right is the positive numbers or positive experiences or reactions. Both positive and negative numbers go to infinity, and it seems sometimes that so do human experiences.

What makes the difference between positive and negative experiences? To understand this I looked at the opposites in human experience. I had to define the extremes of experiences or at least the "movement" in that direction. I call love the movement in the positive direction and fear the movement in the negative direction.

I watched my body's reactions to fear and noticed the contraction and tensing that I associate with fear. In fear there is a resistance to the stimuli, repulsion and a sense of no-ness. In noticed that fear is only my physical reaction of contraction and tension to the THOUGHTS in my head or brain.

In love my body's reaction to the thought is one of softening, relaxing, of feeling a yes-ness and attraction.

I noticed that with practice I could both develop the skill of relaxing, softening, appreciating and the flexibility that allowed me to mold or adjust to what I was experiencing. As time moves on I experience a life of more light, joy, love, peace and freedom. Not that the situations of life have becomes any easier, they purposely have not, but my reactions are different.

As I watch and talk to people I notice that the more dense, heave, contracted, inflexible people are the more they experience life as negative.

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What Motives Us?

What do we want? We seek money, power, fame, sex (love?), possessions, etc., but what do we are really want from these things?

I had to understand the meaning of many of the words that came to my mind when I asked myself these questions. I realized that words are only sounds (or ink spots on a page) that are used to point our attention at something. So, I asked myself, what am I pointing at with my words.

What I found I was looking for was to feel "good". Goodness. Good with only one "o" is God. I wanted to feel good through and through; on all levels. Internally good, the body healthy, the mind at peace (or at least capable of returning there) the world...oh, hell with the world. If I felt good then what difference does it make if others choose to be warring now?

A new vehicle would be nice. So would that fast new computer. What if I do not find the vehicle? Or what about the cost of that computer? Am I going to limit the quality of my life experience because of what the universe offers? I want to feel good, so what if somebody rejects me? SO WHAT? Feeling GOOD is a choice that I can make all the time, no matter what the world is doing.

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Trapped in Fear

The whole oak tree is trapped in the acorn. Fear, the contracted state, is the starting point, the place where we grow out of and into a world, an experience of appreciation, joy and love. Fear is a product of the tendency to narrow our focus of attention, to make things important, to make ourselves important. Fear and love are both as essential as breathing in and breathing out, but most people are holding their breath in fear.

The complexity of modern life and its environmental and social pressures cause us to react with tension, stress and anxiety, which, in essence is contraction or fear. With time this becomes a habit. We hold our breath or tense up our stomachs to protect us from whatever stresses we perceive are attacking us. A shallow breath causes the muscles to subtly strive for oxygen. We then go into subtle or unrecognized fight or flight mode. But, because this is normal we do not realize that fear has become our abode.

With our bodies tense and uptight we react to stimuli in an excessive manor then is prescribed by the situation. Like the strings of a piano we are wired. When someone or something comes along and strikes those strings we react, be are not in control. We do not even have to be touched to react, just as the piano strings react to the vibrations of a tuning fork, we react to words and images.

After a time our bodies and mind, muscles and nerves, become hard and our ability to appreciate, what life offers diminishes. We find ourselves avoiding situations and people that once caused us no problem, maybe even once enjoyed. It may be the "freaks" at the local mall or the "born-again" preachers down town. Maybe it is our neighbor that we are angry at for blowing their leaves on our lawn. Anything can cause us to over react to a harmless stimuli.

So we stay away; stay in our isolation chambers we call home. No longer are we open to the market place of ideas for we fear our reaction to those ideas or people that we "disagree" with or dislike. The negativity of "dis" becomes our wall; the wall we build to keep "them" out is our prison wall. Trapped in fear of our selves and our reaction to life.

It is not hopeless. There is a way out of our self-imposed prison. But we have to be willing to work our way out. We have to care enough about ourselves to change our habits, behavior and ways of thinking.

The walls of our mind are more painful than the walls of a physical prison cell could limit us, for deep down inside we know that these walls are our own creations; a product of our cowardliness. We began to hate our self, which only motivates us to do more abusive things to ourselves. This self-abuse leads to more fear and the cycle continues it downward spiral.

Unless a crisis comes and forces us to look at ourselves we become hard and closed off to what life offers.

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Introduction

I used to wonder why there were so many problems in the world while we, at least here in America, had so much. I see people with all the THINGS that people want (family, friends, wealth, possessions, and the like) and still they were not happy, they fought with one another, they were angry and afraid.

I see that most, if not all, of our social and person problems stem from a lack of ability to communicate. People can not handle other people's honesty. But that observation was not enough for me. I could not handle other people's honesty. I had to understand why. I felt that if I understood why this human instrument reacted that why then I could "fix" it. Later I was to realize that it was the "fix it" mentality that caused my "problems" (and sometimes still does). But back then it motivated me to seek understanding.

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Victim Consciousness

Getting free to love perfectly requires becoming aware of how much we have been programmed into victim consciousness. Since all our relationships are a product of and encourage victim consciousness then to get free we much leave ALL relationships and see what is left, to see who we are without having others there to control, manipulate or run us. Do we need people? Then we are addicted to relationships and people to MAKE US feel good, just at the alcoholic needs a drink to feel good.

When I awoke I realized that I, and I alone, control the QUALITY of my life experience.

Victim consciousness is just the opposite; it is where I believe that others control the QUALITY of my experience. If I have a bad experience it is somebody else's fault. If I have a good experience it is because of somebody else.

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Self-Love First

You can not love another unless you can love yourself.

If you abuse yourself then you will be in no condition to be nice, kind, patient and loving to others. So what is loving yourself?

Loving yourself is being kind and patient and soft and forgiving to yourself even when you do not meet your expectations. . Loving yourself is eating good, wholesome food in a balanced diet. Loving yourself is getting enough exercise. Loving yourself is having an optimistic attitude about life in general and your life in particular. Loving yourself is believing in yourself. Loving yourself is refraining from substances that handicap you in fulfilling your goals and having a healthy, loving life. Loving yourself is feeling "YESness" about what life is offering you. Loving yourself is flowing with the natural setbacks that you most assuredly will have, and not letting them get you down. Loving yourself is appreciating the fullness and richness of THIS moment, not dwelling on the guilt of the past or the fear or the future. Loving Yourself is practicing seeing the beauty in ALL life. Loving yourself is allowing for the rest and stillness that rejuvenates and brings the clarity that releases you from the worries and fears that will otherwise consume your life. Loving yourself is recognizing that you have complete control over the quality of your life, your emotions and the beauty that you experience in life. Loving yourself is shining your light so that others can see in darkness and not bump into you.

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MeditationMedication

Calming yourself with skills or drugs. The choice is yours. The POWER to choose comes with practice. Inquire within.

Drugs, both pharmaceutical and illicit, are used to calm us down, but they have negative side effects. Meditation and/or emotional self-mastery have no negative side effects.

We choose drugs because we are lazy or we do not know how to develop emotional self-mastery.

Emotional self-mastery (mediation) is just the art/skill of relaxing the muscles and nerves of the body. Letting go of what we are making important best does this. Importance is heaviness, tension and power. Tension is necessary for life, but so is rest. BOTH skills make for a whole and complete experience.

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The Negative Side Effects of Meditation

You are healthier: the doctors and the medical industry can not make as much money off you.
Your diet will become healthier and the junk food industry will lose money.
If your people meditated then there would be less interest in war and the military industrial complex would go out of business.
You have inner peace and the psychiatrist will lose business.
If more people meditated there would be less neediness for the decadent and excessive goods and the economy will falter. The market would correct and all the instant billionaires would have to get real jobs.
You will be less concerned with clothes and appearance so the fashion industry would lose business.
If more people meditated the dictators, tyrants and despots would not be able to intimidate or manipulate the masses into submission.

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Atonement

Atonement is being "at one" with all that is, union with God, perfection.

The possibility of atonement. This is stimulating and encouraging the belief, faith or idea that we can have what we truly want, TO PERFECTION, if we are willing and open to it. I come to challenge our closeness to this possibility.

I want to know how to share with people the possibility...is you open to it?

Your are one with God when you are saying (and feeling) yes to all that life offers.

Your are one with God when you are not resisting evil.

You are one with God when you are shinning your light on all that life has to offer. Smiling, saying yes.

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Spiritual Life

The spiritual life consists of a series of stages. The stages relate to our beliefs and how strongly we hold on to them. We fight with life, we suffer and have a negative experience until we see and let go of the belief that is trapping us in this struggle. Then we move on to the next stage. It is in seeing the silliness, unconsciousness or stupidity of our beliefs that liberates us from the struggle or fight.

This does not mean that someday we will come back to these beliefs and again engage in the "fight" or struggle. But once we have seen the illusion of the belief or struggle, and we remember it, then we can PLAY or dance with the element that is our opponent. It is not "real" any more, it is play, a game, a dance, fun, joy and love are the motives.

I love the PLAY of life. I have seen through all my beliefs, my illusion, and my assumptions that trap me in fear of life. This does not mean that I have seen through all my illusion, only that I have seen through the ones that trap me in fear of life. I recognize that I still have illusions or beliefs on how to maximize the quality or play of life.

For instance, I am questioning whether I should honor my desire to play and enjoy life and sacrifice my love and joy so that others can have peace. I wonder, are they calling me to go back in to their deadness and unconsciousness, and is it my old beliefs that they are the source of my joy and love that motives me to listen. Or do I generally feel their pain and conflict and want to eliminate their suffering. Again that would be the lie that I am the one with the power over their suffering.

Or, and this is a big "or", do I allow their suffer and let it be the motivator they need do break through their attachments to their beliefs that are causing their fear, pain, suffering and misery.

I see my "gift" of pain or agitation as a motivator to break through their attachments. If I was to be like everybody else I would comfort them and enable them to stay trapped in their attachments, beliefs and fears that is causing their suffering. Then they would always NEED me to comfort them and they would have to come back to me, they would have to do my bidding because then they would NEED me and I would have the control over them.

But then they would fear being honest with me and I would NEVER get their truth, their light, and their real love. It would always be a relationship based on NEED and not on love.

Since I am consciousness that love is my motivator I know that I can never go back to supporting or comforting or eliminating their suffer, at least not the suffering they are causing themselves. I love them as I love myself and I would never want that kind of loss of love, that kind of entrapment in neediness or fear for either of us.

So I must stick with the honesty of my joy and love. I will endure their anger, hatred and rejection no matter how much it hurts just to allow them their passion that will motivate them to let go of their beliefs that is causing their suffering. It hurt, yes, even unto death sometime (my willingness to die) but I will endure it or die.

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Death is My Desire

I have known and accepted that death is my destiny, but it is times like this when it again becomes my desire. I am MORE than willing to die when the time comes. I want the time to be now.

Yesterday, somebody I love dearly told me that she would kill me if she had the means. She was so angry at me that the only way she could see to eliminate her pain was to kill me. That hurt me SO MUCH that I was not just willing to allow her to kill me but wishing that she would.

YET, and this is a big yet, I can see the big picture and know that she will overcome this pain, that the pain WE feel will pass. The pain is a tool to motivate her to let go of her attachments. I also see that there are many others out there that I have not yet motivated to examine their beliefs and attachments. I MUST GO ON, no matter how much it hurts. I will let the universe tell me when I can graduate/die. The fight to survive is gone out of me (at least for now) and if the universe brings death then I will not struggle with it, even if it is only death from neglect. But suffering I will endure...

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The Greatest Lie

Words do not hurt people; people's reactions cause injury.

The greatest lie is that words hurt people: that we are responsible for other people's reactions to our words. This greatest lie is the greatest travesty ever perpetuated upon humanity. This greatest lie also causes physical and mental diseases as well as creates an environment of mistrust, social conflicts and even war. The greatest lie limits the quality of life that is available to all of us.

The children chant "Sticks and stones may break my bones but words will never harm me." What the children know intrinsically, many adults have forgotten.

We have been programmed to abuse themselves emotionally just stimulated by words and their associated ideas. This enables the manipulative people to stimulate the unaware person in such a way as to motivate them to serve the will of the user.

As children we learn to be aware of what the adults say, for it is a clue to how they will treat us. If they call us bad then we learn to be aware that they will probably beat us. We become programmed to react to their words. Later, as adults we carry this fear. For instance, if somebody does not want people to wear their hair long they could say that long hair is evil or bad. The unaware person would then not want to experience their programmed response of guilt to the idea of being evil or bad so they would limit their behavior by not growing their hair long. Or, if somebody does not want to look at their own limiting behavior then they would try to intimidate others into not questioning their behavior by saying they will withdraw their love or attention if you start to question them.

Believing in the great lie is therefore detrimental to you health and wellbeing. When the unaware person feels the pain of their self-abusive behavior they begin limiting their expressions or honesty and "holding it in" causing stress. This holding it in starts to "eat them up" inside and eventually causes diseases like cancer.

Community only happens when there is honest, open communication. When we withhold our honesty we are also cutting ourselves off from those we love and otherwise communicate with. When this communication breaks down because people are afraid to hurt other people with their honesty then the sense of connectedness and community breaks down. Conflict and eventually violence are the result.

Some people want to control others because they are too lazy or cowardly to control themselves. It is so much easier to intimidate others then it is to develop emotional self-mastery and control our own reactions to what others say.

Some people reinforce the lie that words hurt by telling unaware people that they will modify their expressions so as to enable the unaware person to not abuse him or herself. These people are enablers and are needy for attention so they will conform to what others expectations is so as to be 'popular' and accepted.

How about talking to people who do not have the self-love skills that enable then to listen to you. If your expressions are not censored then you will drive them away, will you not? And, if you are very strong in your expressions then will you not drive away everybody?

Yes, you will drive away those weak in their self-love skills but you will also be showing them where their darkness is so that they can address it. You will also be stimulating or motivating them to develop their self-love skills. If they are constantly being forced to run from people who are honest then they will eventually get tired of being afraid and sooner or later will have to look at why they are reacting to the words. It is your honesty that enables them to see how they really treat themselves instead of enabling them to continue ignoring their self-abusive behavior.

If you want to talk to someone then have the courage to accept how they express themselves, not at you want him or her to express.

The solution to the Great Lie is developing the skills of self-love.

Self-love is the root of all love, the beginning, of love. If we know how to love ourselves then we never need fear honest (or even dishonest) expressions from anybody. This skill simply consists of learn how to relax enabling you to not react to the words, or even to our own thoughts (reactions). The best method of doing this is to see the Big Picture, so see how unimportant the current situation really is in that Big Picture. Seeing the Big Picture, seeing how unimportant the current situations is, frees you from expectation of 'doing' anything and allows you to relaxes both the body and the mind.

What if somebody is purposely trying to hurt you with words? Then, from you place of peace you will be able to see that they only try to hurt you because they are hurting, and you can have compassion for them.

Words do not hurt people; people's reactions to words cause injury. Anything less than complete honesty, any self-censorship, is to be lying. It is time that people grow up, take responsibility for their own actions and allow others to take responsibility for their actions.

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